I have been working on an issue at work.  It’s been there for several months and I have been getting into deadends.  No progress and its affecting our goals.  Worst, it has reached the level of the managers and they are keeping a keen eye on the issue.  This means I have to double my efforts to resolve it. 

Changes took place.  I am now working on the issue with two other engineers.  That can mean two things:  (1)  They see the need for additional heads on the issue.  I really need a helping hand to speed things up since I used to be the only one doing it or (2)  They no longer trust my judgement and I need others to help me out.  The second one got me scared, desperate and paranoid.

Two weeks past and we still come up with the wrong theories.  Nothing seem to work.  Last Wednesday, during the YM Prayer Meeting, I asked for a prayer to grant me the wisdom to solve this issue.  And every night, I would pray and challenge him to help me just as he helped me before.

Yesterday, my prayer was answered.  One of our experiments showed significant change that can resolve the issue once and for all.  I should be happy.  But I was not.  The idea on how to resolve it didnt come from me but from my colleague.

Why not I, Lord?  I prayed for You to give me the wisdom to resolve it and You gave it to someone else.  I am desparate to clean up this mess so that I will be recognize for it and have myself redeemed.  But no.  It didnt came from me.

I was bothered with this thought but came to realize His wisdom.

1.  I need to understand teamwork.  I was not working alone but as a team.  What the team achieves, everybody wins.  God is part of my team.

2.  I need to be humbled.  I am not perfect and sometimes, I need others to help me.  The possible solution that was given was something I alone can never arrive to.  God used my teammate to make me realize that.

3.  I need others.  Two weeks can seem to be a long time to arrive at a solution.  But if I was doing it alone, it can take another quarter.  I learned to work with them despite our differences.  I learn how to communicate with them effectively and establish respect with one another.

Why not I?  God knows.  What I know, He still knows whats best.  And my best is yet to come.